Yesterday I was asked by a male customer if I was pregnant. This is the second time in my adult life I've been asked this when I am indeed NOT pregnant.
I am 5 feet 4 inches tall. I weighed 129lbs at my last doctors appointment a few weeks ago. I am, by no means a big girl. I'm not fat. I'm not chubby. I'm not flat tummy-ed. I'm not toned. I'm pear shaped. I have "muffin tops". I eat well. I exercise. I'm healthy.
So why do I get asked this? Why is it that these men think that because I don't have the body of a Dallas Cowboy's cheerleader that the only other explanation for my body is that I'm pregnant?
What is wrong with my body? NOTHING.
Why do I get asked this? Because there are stupid people out there who apparently don't have a grasp on reality. And what real (read: average)women look like.
Why do I let this effect me when I try so hard to not let it?
I don't know, but I'm trying really hard to not let it.
Why do I lose confidence about myself over how far over my jeans my tummy is? Why can't I just accept myself and my body as it is? Why do I even have to think these things?
Even more so, why do I think these things even though I know how LOVED I am by my husband. By my family. My friends.
What is it going to take to make society understand that women come in all shapes and sizes and that is ok? Not just ok~ 100% PERFECTLY OK. We are all amazing people. We are all placed on this Earth for a reason. We should all learn to accept ourselves and other for what we are. For the effort we put into ourselves. For the goodness we project to others.
I am cut from a pretty stubborn cloth and I will not let this keep me down. I'm going to do as my Dad say's: "Tape it and go". I'm going to tape a little bandage on my heart and I'm going to go out into the world knowing that I am a wonderful and beautiful woman. I am going to reaffirm in myself all the qualities that make me me and LOVE MYSELF. I'm going to love every single detail about myself, because I work for it. Because this is the body I have grown into and it's wonderful.